Happy Thoughts

"It is really hard to think of your happy moments when you are in pain and in the midst of agony.  So I really have to find a perfect place where I could inwardly think of it... and that place is "SILENCE"."

"The Door", this symbolizes the most happiest part of my life.  How I wish that this door will open once again together with the happy moments that  we have in our family in the past.  I consider the time when this door opens and welcomes each and every member of the family as the happiest moments that i had in my life.

See, I am with a broken family and as the youngest it is really hard to accept everything that easily.  Until now, although it is already 3 yecars ago when my parents got separated from each other, I still have the hope and faith that everything will be fixed sooner and we will have a very happy family once again; a complete and perfect family.
A family of love, understanding and respect.  I will not ever get tired of waiting to have my family be complete and happy once again and on that time I will make sure that this door will close and will surely not let anybody to be apart from the family again.

"MYSELF"---- Sometimes my own negative experiences that, somehow, affect how I positively view life are those what hindrance this happy thought of mine.  My failures, loose of faith, mistakes, regrets, anxieties, doubts, and fears that I have inside are those viruses that tries to block my happiness.   As long as I can, I do not want to be affected with what happens in my environment, but then, if it is already myself vs. myself...   I really find it very hard to maintain myself with my principle.


"SILENCE"---- Silence is life, as what I always say.  Whenever that I am in pain and in trouble this is where I go, this is what I look for.  In silence I could inwardly think of and reflect with everything that I have gone through.  This is the perfect place where I could help myself to be with a positive outlook in life.
In silence, I could able to console myself better than anybody does for me.  Yes, in some point, I best cope in silence.  I never found myself alone, lonely and afraid on this place because in silence I know that GOD is with me, helping for I to overcome everything.  I could feel His presence more and so powerful...with Him, I could able to reflect and see my self as clear as diamonds.